Loving Ginny

I knew that once we had a baby our lives would change forever.  In some ways that change was scary, but, yet, eagerly anticipated.  Now, I cannot imagine my life without Virginia (Ginny).  I love her beyond any measure.  She is the greatest treasure, blessing, and light in my life.

It isn't fair in some ways that a child never fully understands their parents' love for them until they become a parent themselves.  I loved Ginny before she was born, but that love grew by leaps and bounds once she was born.  The love for her continues to grow.  It is a love unlike any other I have ever felt.  My parents made sure to let me know they loved my sister and me, especially Mom (only because she is naturally more demonstrative...not because she loved us any more than Dad).  Even with all that love being "thrown" at us, while I loved (and still love) my parents, I did not realize how much they loved us until Ginny was born.

Ginny is a wonderful gift from God.  I am thankful every day for her....even when she is cranky or doesn't let me get much sleep.  I enjoy watching her learn and discover new things.  Her smiles light me up from the inside.  I laugh so much with her now. Just watching her enjoying a toy will have me laughing hysterically at times.

I even cry due to her.  If she is in pain and I can't fix it, I am in pain too...often with unshed tears in my eyes.  This past Thursday she went in for her 4 month check up.  She had some shots she had to get, and I found myself crying with her.  I hated hearing her in that much shock and pain.  It tore me up.  I knew she needed the vaccinations, but didn't like seeing her going from smiling up at the nurses to the sudden howl and tears.

My greatest worry in life is now Ginny.  I worry about her more than myself or anyone else I know.  After Ginny was born, it took a while for my milk to come in and Ginny lost 15 oz, over 15% of her body weight.  That was a cause of concern.  While some weight loss is normal (around 5-7%), she lost more than normal.  It took a little while for her to gain the weight back, but now she is super healthy and gaining like a champ.  At her appointment we found out that she is now 14 lbs. 6.5 oz. and 23 3/4 inches long. Just seeing those numbers made me beam!

From now until the end of my days, Ginny will fill my thoughts and life.  I couldn't be more grateful for her.  Loving Ginny is the best thing ever!