OMG!! A BFP!!!

Oh my goodness!! This morning I took a pregnancy test with the full expectation that I would get a BFN (big fat negative). I was mentally prepared for it, although I hoped against hope it would be the opposite--a BFP! So sure was I that I would get a BFN, that I put the pregnancy test on the counter, finished getting ready, went into another room and eventually came back. I didn't stare watching and hoping as usual. I figured getting a BFN would help me end the "hope" that I might be pregnant this time around.

Surprise, surprise! When I went to look, there were two lines on my beautiful FRER pregnancy test! Woo hoo!

Since the D&C and after my first period after, Chris & I have been trying to get pregnant again. It hasn't been easy because my temps have been erratic and trying to determine ovulation has been exceedingly difficult. Last month, when my period started, I had a mini-meltdown on Chris. Poor guy! He puts up with me so well. He not only calmed me down but while talking I went back and recounted the number of months we had been trying since the D&C. It had only been 2 at that point (I had miscounted and was convinced it was 4), and I was relieved and hopeful again. On those 2 I had been drinking pomegranate juice as well. I had heard it helped a woman's CM (cervical mucus). Well, I did some research and found that while it helps a man's fertility, it can actually harm a woman's. Oh boy.

The next day I told Chris I had a plan. First off, I was getting rid of the juice! ;) Secondly, an every other day plan to make a baby. I figured that way if my chart was erratic once again, we would likely not miss the window. Apparently, I was right! First off, I ovulated a lot later than I normally do (like CD [cycle day] 17 or 18 instead of 14).

Anyhow, since 4 dpo (days past ovulation) I've been running a low grade temp every night. My temps have been higher in the morning like they should except at 7 dpo I had a dip (from 98.1 waking temp to 97.5). That had me hopeful because the only times in the past that has happened in my chart has been when I'm pregnant. Since about 8 dpo, I've been beyond exhausted every day. The fatigue....well, it has never been my favorite part but I'm grateful for it since I know it is a sign. I've also had some slight feelings of nausea in the evenings and my boobs are starting to get sore.

Now, I just hope and pray that this baby stays with us for all nine months! I also pray it is born in 9 months. I don't want another loss. But, I can't really control that. I guess I'll just need to be patient.

(I am not posting this until I make it past 10-12 weeks or unless [God forbid] we suffer another loss.)