In 24 hours...

I will be heading to the operating room in the Carol Jo Vecchie building of St. John's Hospital for a c-section. Part of me will be slightly uncomfortable because I will not have had anything to eat or drink for 10 hours or more, but I won't be focused on that.  I will be filled with nervous anticipation knowing that my life is about to change.

It is hard to believe that the time is here and that in less in 24 hours Chris and I will be heading to the hospital.

I still remember seeing the FRER with a positive result in early August and exploding with joy.  It is kind of strange because I had such a sense of peace that this baby would be okay and I would carry it to term. God filled me with that peace from the beginning.  It doesn't mean I wasn't nervous the whole way that something would go wrong--a miscarriage or incompetent cervix or many other possibilities that crossed my mind.  Who would blame me for those fears after losing 3 babies?  However, I would always go back to the feeling I had when I first saw the positive pregnancy test.  Hope!

I'm so looking forward to meeting Baby G and loving on Baby G.  I can't wait to "know" his or her name either.  I still have fears and worries.  My main concern now is that my baby is healthy.  That is all I want is a healthy baby....not so much for my sake, but for my baby's sake.  I will take what God gives us with joy, but I hope and pray that the baby is healthy so it can live a long and happy life.